[This is getting to be too much to talk about, Micchi doesn't like it. Admitting to himself that he knows niisan never lets anyone get close to him these days either, not after the way he was betrayed... He has far more reason not to trust than Micchi does. Micchi was the betrayer, not the betrayed.

How can niisan bear to be near him, let alone hold him like this?

It's not as if this is easy for me, either. Micchi bristles at those words. As if he could forget!]

It can't be easy for niisan. [Micchi fixes his eyes straight ahead on the TV, staring but not seeing anything on the screen.] He has to spend every day with the person he trusted, the person who nearly got him killed, more than once. And not just be near him, but help him, and care for him, and apologise to him. How can you stand it? [Micchi blinks hard to hold back tears.] How can you stand me?